It's been a really big adjustment to motherhood, really big and long. It's taken a lot out of me and has already taught me a lot. I wouldn't change it for the world. This boy has changed my world and ultimately has become the center of it, well him and his father. They make life so worth living and exciting and I can't wait to see where our journey in life takes us.
This week, little man and I have been under the weather so we are trying to get better and resting often (:
Here are a few photos from monkeys first official bath time. Not the best photos in the world because lighting was not on our side, but I definitely plan on getting more photos of bath times.
I love this baby so much, he is my best friend, my son, my everything. Right now he is having gassy pains and I'm trying to figure out if their is anything in my diet that is causing it. Breastfeeding mamas, give me advice here!
At 3 in the morning when I saw the blue line all I could do is hold my breath as I walked into the bedroom where Cody was sound asleep. I contemplated waiting to tell him in the morning, or not even telling him at all, but within 5 minutes all I could do was blurt it out. He didn't react like I expected, he just said 'alright' and went back to bed. It still didn't seem real to me. It didn't seem real to me at the first doctor's appoint or even at the first ultrasound. I had such an easy pregnancy that everything didn't seem real to me.
Except, at that moment when we were headed to the hospital and everything was about to change. That was the biggest moment of my life. Of Cody and I's life. Everything was changing. It was no longer just the two of us. When we left that hospital, it was the three of us. It was perfect and scary.
The past two weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions. The late nights, the intimate moments of breastfeeding and having someone be fully dependent on us has given me a whole new appreciation for my mother. You have no idea how much love a mother has for her child unto you hold your own child in your arms. It's hard to explain, really. It's crazy. But, there is nothing I wouldn't do for my son. I love him endlessly.
I was saying this was going to be a post on motherhood, but I've only been a mother for two weeks and I don't nearly know enough. But, I do know that I have a new appreciation for mothers and fathers and for love. I love my son more than anything in the world. But, I love his father that much more. The look on Cody's face when he looks at Alexander makes me extremely happy and my heart extremely warm. It's like a mini heart explosion every single time I look at them. My heart melts for them. That is a love that I have never known. I'm glad I do now.
He is adorable. This was also the calm before the storm. Literally, right after this he spit up everywhere and almost blew out his diaper. YUP, this is motherhood and I absolutely love it.
I look at him and I smile and I can't help but smile, he has my heart and always will. The love that a mother has for her children is absolutely unconditional. The long hours at night and the messy diapers and milk stained shirts are definitely all worth it. I'll share my thoughts on motherhood in a post soon.
*Please excuse my photo quality* - It's been extremely rainy and yucky here, so artificial light it is.
1. Julius - Last night was an interesting one and surprisingly I slept through the whole thing. But, last night I had set some trash out on the back patio and around 1:30 in the morning Julius starts barking like crazy at something outside. Well, Cody goes out and looks and it was a lovely bear that jumped over our patio gate and was digging through the trash. That was an unpleasant story to wake up to. // 2. My sister got me this cup and I absolutely can not wait to use it.